Living in today

Its been so long, since I have last seen you,
I can't even remember the times, when I laughed heartily.
Or the time, when I let my imaginations run wild, thinking of our future..

Oh honey fret not, am happy! being a prisoner of my own mind.
Walls heavier, than my grieving heart, hold me back.
Oh dear, don't hate me, when you see that I closed the window, which helped me to peak into our happier future.

I know you'd call it madness,
but I named this hell as ' living in today'
Isn't that how you taunted me,
when I cried over the spoilt li'l dates..
'stop living in Fantasyland, live in today'
Like always, I listened to you..
But then, why do you complain now that am no fun..

You laughed, when I shed tears, just at the thought of missing you..
And now you cry, that I am stone cold..

You say, am a Pandora box, that you can't see what comes next..
But isn't that what you wished for..
Isn't that what you made me into, when you pushed me so far, that I can't even find myself anymore..

I lived here, happily, or so I convinced myself..
till I heard your voice, once again, heavier with worry.
It broke that very heart, am trying to save all this while, even if it mean faking my happiness.
I could protect my heart, all I want, but not by breaking yours..
So, I run.. to break free, of all the shackles I embraced.
So, I run.. like that wild river I was, only to know that you are still on the other side of the world.

Inspired by fictional stories