( Wasn't ) Good enough for you.

It was a dark and gloomy night..

like many other nights that have passed by, since you walked away... 

Was that just minutes ago? Or have years passed by?
Time doesn't hold any meaning, neither my existence!
For I naively made you, the purpose of my existence!

It never felt so wrong before, 

when I moved heaven and earth, 

to make your heart desires come true..

It never felt so wrong before,

when I left behind the entire world, 

to be in your arms, making it my world..

It never felt so wrong before,

as it makes me feel now..

when I saw you, speaking those last words, before you walked away..
"Wasn't good enough for you"

Oh! The first time I heard those words, 

I saw nothing beyond those beautiful eyes of yours.. 

Your voice fading into background,

as I lost myself in Fantasy land.

It took me a while to understand those words, 

just the way it took me a while to understand you..

May be, the night borrowed coldness from your eyes

and that darkness from your heart... 

But it refuses to leave me like you did,

even when am begging it to leave!

As the nights passed by,

every memory we shared became more vivid.. 

Fading the past before we met

and destroying every hope of future, 

now I try to see,without you..

Leaving me on the altar of happiness, 

you pushed me from my beautiful spring garden into this ice cold meadow..

Try and run as hard as I might,

I keep going round and round, bound to you and our memories..

I lie down, 

and keep staring at the stars,

wondering about you.. 

There are a million reasons to hate you!
But not without hating myself more..

They say, night gives way, sooner or later, to a day.. 

Just the way, I have to let go of you, 

to let the light take away the darkness engulfing me..

As much hope as those words give me,

they make me worry too..
For am worried about letting you go,

even from my thoughts...

A/n :  Inspired by many fictional stories. And, a couple of lines closely resemble " There a million reason to give you up.. But the heart wants what it wants" by Selena Gomez, mainly because that line and the story I heard just then made me think " may be a million reasons to hate someone, but not without hating yourself".

This is a melancholic one, even the ending being tainted with darkness. But sometimes that's the way life and love seems, especially when you are struck. Having said that, I truly believe that it's just a phase and you will eventually find happiness once you are able to let go of things that are hurting you. So here it goes.