In your thoughts.

Eyes closed..
Trusting you..
Walked with you..
Or, I walked just for you?

Heart broken..
Torn apart..
I stand here for you..
Or, you left me here?

Tears blur the hopes that I have ever seen, with you..
With you, I have painted the world, in our love..
Now I stand alone in darkness..
Searching for you..
And for myself I left behind..

You spoke of future.. Happy and blissful
How can I live for it.. When am dying every day..
Wishing to live that dream now.

In your thoughts.. I lost myself..
How can I love you.. When I can't love myself anymore..

P.s story behind "in your thoughts"

Teenage love sees everything in extremes. Its either wonderful or awful.. Its a land of fantasy. Dream ends and you wake up. Bitter.
As you and your love grow with time.. You tend to ask yourself questions.. Hate yourself for being crazy about  them. And hate yourself more for hating them.
When you are dragged into reality you cant accept it. And when you keep on wishing for that fantasy.. Your world starts falling apart. Then you realise that you lost yourself in the thoughts of your love.
How can you love some other person and keep them happy when you can't love yourself and be happy with yourself?
When you start asking yourself that question... Then everything falls back into place.. Only then you can live your fantasy. If not.. You will end up cherishing yourself more. Either way, life will be better.
Inspired by fictional stories